well 1 thing for sure that i am always in doubt of myself..when will i be the person i want to be? i m tired of being hu i am now

<> HAHAX
wohooo....
hahax......
ok now having prelims but relieving my stress life....
hahax..
life is kind of hmm...bad?
well id un think so..
.its fun having frens hu cares and dun cares..
hahax...
well 1 thing for sure that life is great..
and it dun suck at all...
hahax..
learn that from my fren....
kind of cool to have a fren hu cares..
even ur nick can triggers the caring side of a fren and ask wats happening..
thx alot yah..
hmm just chg my perception of him being very mean.....
hahax..
thx a lot HELMI......
hahax..
i must be crazy..
hahax...
ok gtg now byes.....
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U have fly ME to the MOON

u have made fall in love wif you so deeply....
i love u so much...
on the night u made fall in love u much more...
all i can think of is you....
but i will never noe wat u feel abt me....
oh pls be true to me.....
i love u
i love u i love u...
but when am i gonne tell u..
oh my love....
i may sound sick but this is wat i m feeling now..
i just cant help it..
seeing u that night made me fall in love with u much more deeper in my heart...
u r so so so sweet that night and hearing ur beautiful pieces have made me deeply in love...
u have just feel my hearts wif song...
i love you.....
i cant stop saeing i love you..
am i in love?????
I LOVE YOU>>>>>

the dae.......

hey7 hello.
there....
its been a long time since i m here....
miss my blog so much....
welll o levels r jus ard the corner....
i mean in a few mths time watever i have learnt will be judged...
wat ever it is i will do my very best....
well i would like to go to bio med sch at SP and i aslo would love to go to NAFA...
major in fahion design....
i love designning stuffs and its like my past time thing...
now i have like my own collection of design... just waiting to be sewn by myself after o level... After o i want to work with louis vuitton... burberry....gucci...and lot more of high end fashion boutique..
well i guess tru this work i can have more knowle'dge on fashion and get to satisfy my very needs...well i reallly hope that i can get the jhob...
but just dunnoe where to start looking....
haix.....
well thats all for todae...
BTW...
JUBILANT was the best concert i have evr gone to yesterdae....
gd job guys......

missing camp and chalets and stuffs

hey there..
so how life...
it is so fast that 1 mth just fly past wohoo....

missing camp and chalets.....

A resort of paradise turn to be a big great Tragedy

yohoo.
just return from a chalet which turns out to be not relaxing after all...
we have a treasure in the early morning of 13 june..
so i miss the match italy vs ghana...
hmm..
the treasure hunt is so tiring man...
wohoo.....
but now i just miss the chalet...
a lot of thingd happen during our stay...
we play double and we have to kiss ceratain ppl..
hmm...
we really put effort ANd think wisely when theres a big situation...
ontop off all...
we really bond together...
even those who hardly noe each other like this sec 3 girl who hardly noe a grp of sec 4 boys and they blend in together..
those who r enemies r noe buddies...
thx..
to all who make this a wonderful stay ...
and out in effort to make it work especially....
AUNTY ALICE...
thx you very much...
we love u AUNTY ALICE>>>>>
there r pic...
which i will upload tomorrow or when i get back my camera....
chows.....
meet u guys later....

why must u still call by the name u noe i hate most(i think)

hey its been long that i come in here..
so exams has been grade and now talentime is ard the corner..
u noe wat sumthing happen to be yesterdae adn i feel quite down ..
in tha middle of havnig fun some1 just said FAT PIG to me and i was like wat the F!!!
u r not in conversation aniwaes..
and i think u noe i hate beiang called names..
so..
watever man.....
i thought u were a fren..
best fren..
and u did this to me..
watever man.....
ok gtgg see u guys later..
or next time..

yox....
its been so long ..
hmm. just got my results...
and it is damn lousy..
hmm thursdae went out to the beach with ny frens...
damn it was fun...
hahax..
1 more week to MT O'level..
woohoo......

hey hi there..
once again..
i m here..
hmm.... todae i went for early lunch and late breakfast wif my frens ahhax....
and i had the most interesting dream ever to dae...
too bad cant share it on the blog AHAHHAHAHA....
OH OK THATS EVIL...WELL I DUN CALL MYSELF R FACTOR FOR NOTHING RITE....
HAHAX...
OK BYE.....

hey hi...
once again we meet...
todae its like the best dae...
i watch tv from 11.30 to 4.30...
wow.......
i was like....
aras won survivor.....
and i hope the hippies won the amazing race.....
finally mojo is out....
hahhahax....
this may sound evil...
cant wait for DA VINCI CODE to come out in cinemas......
two more papers and i m out of exam mood....
hahax....

erm me on the train back to singapore..
all the way from taman negara....
on 17 march 2006.. its kind of late hahax..

the death i brought upon

11 may 2006

Today I got the truth and nothing but the truth…
I noe I m wrong and will always be at the wrong…
I have been keeping this to myself and look wat I have done.
I m such a mess look wat I have done..
I knew it and I just keep it in my damn heart..
I cant blame others..
This whole even has just came to conclusion that the R Factor is the one that make it happen..
Belive it or not…
In every thing that happen in our life there’s a constant.. and this constant for wat happen is the r factor…. It’s a thing that no 1 can run away..
The costant will always there it will not change as it is the costant..
Now for 1 thing for sure the r factor will go away from those life who have touch this r factor which is the red blooded roses on the coffin door and just brought in all the deaths in this world that we live in..
How this thing will go away onli the r factor noe it which is the r factor will take a step back and sae gd bye to the deaths he has caused…
This is the best thing that I can do
Give and take is wat I shld have done …
Without me u guys would have a better life
I m just this selfish BITCH
Sorry ppl….
Thast it for now. ……………………….
tHERE WILL BE NO DEATHS FROM NOW ON>>>>>